My Garden - V McGarvey cc-by 2025
Irritation for no reason, stop looking, stop reading stop thinking,
I am going to be destitute,
I shouldn't have resigned, retired, or left.
It was a mistake.
But how would I have coped?
With Mum's memory pain, with my cancer pain,
And the pain on pain of the unprepared death of a loved one.
There for everyone.
Arms outstretched, folded arms, aching arms, excruciating arms.
Where am I, who am I, and are you in there?
There are 2,
I don't want the other,
Why don't you be my friend,
Stop criticising me, stop challenging me,
Be my friend,
Am I really thinking this?
Come on calm self,
Assimilate, angry, challenging, critical self,
Dissect the positive, blow out, smudge, and buff the rest.
You are stronger.
On and on and on - irritation
STOP!
It's ok, your mind is your friend,
My mind is my friend,
But nothing is ok, all of the time,
Cleanse, defrag, empty is ok.
We cannot love all of the time, not even ourselves, and that is ok.