I am feeling emotionally a bit drained today. It's nearly 2 years since I've finished work and I still find it difficult to stop putting pressure on myself when I am doing stuff, to do it just right when this is of no consequence. It's habitual as decades of work does this to you. You have all these professional and academic achievements under your belt but the only people who really know about this or even care positively or negatively are no longer part of your everyday life. And it is not important to strangers, why should it be, it's quite humbling. This picture is New Year in Amsterdam, where I was just over a week ago, a firework a moment in time never to be repeated. Fireworks can be beautiful but also fearful, in the moment, their great awe draws attention and distracts, humbling to onlookers.